Venting

So i have decided that i am so done with school, and the dorms, and stupid people. Normally this is not like me to be so negative, but i have let everything build up and get to me.

First off for my ranting that i will be doing i can't wait to not live in the dorms. Its not the dorms that i don't like, it is the room mate part of it. It has been a week or so that we have not said a word to each other. I try and make conversation, but i get no response back. It is like i am talking to myself. Better yet to add to this issue, is the fact that we have been friends since before high school. big mistake to live with her, lesson learned.

Secondly, i have decided that i have no patience when i get stressed. I think that might be why i am being so negative. It is all the little things that get me. I think i have just been trying to pretend that everything is going well and that life is good that i have been hiding the fact i am stressed out of my mind. i have never been the one to complain, and to be honest i hate the fact that i am right now. I am not one to share my emotions with someone unless they are good things to share. So i have decided that i will share with this blog, so i can get it out of my system.

Anatomy is kicking me in the ass. I have studied my butt off, been going to tutoring, and i still can't seem to be doing good in the class, and time it running out. I have no room to fail the class because that will put me a year behind because i would have to take it over. ugh. so hopefully a miracle will happen and i will ace the last exam that will allow me to barely pass.

I find that i am taking out my stressfulness on my boyfriend, which makes me feel bad. He is always there to cheer me up but lately i just can't find that happy place that i always used to be in. I hate being negative. Any one you ask will tell you that this is not like me. I have found that if i go and work out i can relieve the tension that i have. that helps a lot because i need to relax. But i feel like the time i spend working out i should be studying. I need to find that point where everything is evened out. I just want to get back to that happy stressed free life i had before this. I know i am probably just having a moment, but still its not fun.

On the other side of things, I am going to go home this weekend. I need to. Partly because kyle (my bf) is also going home which happens to be the same place i live, so it would be silly to stay here at school, when i have the chance to go home and eat good food. and i miss my cat Rosie, so i get to see her.

Any who. that was me ranting, and i actually feel better that i was able to tell someone. Even if no reads what i vented on, i still was able to get it. out. Hope everyones paper is going well, and if you really are enjoying writing it, feel free to finish mine as well. :)